Susan Boyle an unlikely heroine with the voice of an angel, told us that there is another lens to look through, one that goes farther than the eye can see.....
As she stood before a packed crowd of doubting Brits she gave the performance of a life time and wowed the audience with sheer talent and courage.
As I watched her I thought--Susan pays homage to all of us over 40 women who are oozing with talent, energy, courage and spirit yet to be discovered. Yes we know that there are plenty of us, hidden away, helter skelter for all the world to ignore! But it's time--time to come out of our shell, reach for the stars and remember Susan Boyle. Let's wow our own audience with our talent and brilliance and give our own performance of a life time.
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Monday, April 13, 2009
History-Part 2
I can't decide if focusing on me is all I do or something I never do??
Maybe its because when I give myself permission to think about me and my needs I feel so guilty and it seems so unnatural that I think "Enough! Stop being so self indulgent." It's like mischief and misery at the same time.......
Back to history. Going into menopause was both a blessing and a curse. It was about five years ago when the hot flashes and night sweats started. I'd be sitting there listening to a patient and all I could think about was "how red is my face right now" or "I wish I could run out of this room, rip off my clothes and scream"!! Not a good way for a therapist to conduct herself--"Excuse me we have to end this session early today--I'm having what feels like a nervous breakdown."
The blessing was that it gave me permission to say goodbye to a career that had run it's course. No longer able to focus on other people's problems, I now had time to look at mine. And yes that was a blessing--because it created room for change.
More later.....
Maybe its because when I give myself permission to think about me and my needs I feel so guilty and it seems so unnatural that I think "Enough! Stop being so self indulgent." It's like mischief and misery at the same time.......
Back to history. Going into menopause was both a blessing and a curse. It was about five years ago when the hot flashes and night sweats started. I'd be sitting there listening to a patient and all I could think about was "how red is my face right now" or "I wish I could run out of this room, rip off my clothes and scream"!! Not a good way for a therapist to conduct herself--"Excuse me we have to end this session early today--I'm having what feels like a nervous breakdown."
The blessing was that it gave me permission to say goodbye to a career that had run it's course. No longer able to focus on other people's problems, I now had time to look at mine. And yes that was a blessing--because it created room for change.
More later.....
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
History-Part 1
So I decided before I can move forward--I must reflect on what got me here in the first place.
I'd like to blame it on someone else but actually I did it -- I climbed up Rapunzel's Tower all by myself!
It started when I met my husband 26 years ago--yeah I've been screwing up my life for 26 years. He's a great wonderful man and most women love him--I love him! He came into my life when I needed to calm down and settle in--and boy did I....Home in the suburbs, went back to school and got my degree, had a baby--this all sounds great. Right? Well it was for a while. But behind the mask there was growing discontent--I began to see that I was a world away from any world I had ever known. Southern California didn't fit (I grew up in NYC), suburbia didn't fit, girlfriends didn't fit. So I wrapped my arms around my work, my daughter and my marriage and forgot about a little something called "me".
Back to today. It's 5:30 and I need to put something on the dinner table.
History Part 2--coming up. Stay tuned.
I'd like to blame it on someone else but actually I did it -- I climbed up Rapunzel's Tower all by myself!
It started when I met my husband 26 years ago--yeah I've been screwing up my life for 26 years. He's a great wonderful man and most women love him--I love him! He came into my life when I needed to calm down and settle in--and boy did I....Home in the suburbs, went back to school and got my degree, had a baby--this all sounds great. Right? Well it was for a while. But behind the mask there was growing discontent--I began to see that I was a world away from any world I had ever known. Southern California didn't fit (I grew up in NYC), suburbia didn't fit, girlfriends didn't fit. So I wrapped my arms around my work, my daughter and my marriage and forgot about a little something called "me".
Back to today. It's 5:30 and I need to put something on the dinner table.
History Part 2--coming up. Stay tuned.
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Discovery!
My life right now is the color of ashes--grey, uneventful, and dull.
So, as I reach clear down to China-- to the depths of my boredom-- desperately trying to ressurect this hand-me-down life, I vow to blog my way to a new and enriched me.
Children gone, career gone, youth gone, here I am. So lie to me through your long white teeth and tell me I still have it goin' on. Tell me how my life is still rich with opportunity. Lavish me with half truths, silly comments or maybe even a few inspirational ideas.
Because I'm going for it. I'm not sure what "it" is but come along with me and lets find out.
So, as I reach clear down to China-- to the depths of my boredom-- desperately trying to ressurect this hand-me-down life, I vow to blog my way to a new and enriched me.
Children gone, career gone, youth gone, here I am. So lie to me through your long white teeth and tell me I still have it goin' on. Tell me how my life is still rich with opportunity. Lavish me with half truths, silly comments or maybe even a few inspirational ideas.
Because I'm going for it. I'm not sure what "it" is but come along with me and lets find out.
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